Tuesday, August 21, 2012

so many changes...



It has been a while since I have posted. A long while. Thank you for all the 'Mary, where are you emails!'. So very sweet of you. 

The truth is, it has been a sad summer for me. So many huge life changes have happened, and I feel a little wind has been knocked out of my sails. No totally...I still have moments where I feel like my 'normal' self...but I feel changes brewing and I don't like it. 

A couple weeks ago, my beloved dog Jake was diagnosed with bone cancer. I cried. And cried. And I cannot remember the last time I cried or what it was even about. I am tough that way. I am very good at being dealt a really bad hand in life and pulling myself up by the boot straps and carrying on. Attacking the problem one step at a time until it has resolved itself. I am a problem solver, not a problem dweller. Well, this was a biggie. And for a while I was sad. I am now in 'lets deal with it' mode so it is getting better. We did surgery, he is starting chemotherapy tomorrow and we will squeeze every moment life moment we can out of him until we have to say goodbye. He is very happy, you would never know he has a thing wrong with him and I will enjoy him until that changes. 


Well, I thought this was going to be my 'big event of the summer'. Until last week. Out of the blue, my sweet, beloved Dad wasn't feeling well and he was taken to the ER. He has been in the hospital ever since and a few days ago he was diagnosed with advanced cancer.




They cannot even pinpoint what kind of cancer because they cannot tell where it started. I am in total shock. To say we were blindsided by this was an understatement. He has never been in the hospital a day in his life. Rarely gets a cold. He is 79 but you would guess he was 15 years younger. I am coming to terms with it the best I can, but I still have those moments where I just want to curl up on my bathroom floor and cry. 

He is such a rare, incredible man with a beautiful soul. I cannot believe he is going through this. Selfless, patient and strong in his faith. He has been loving my mom for 56 years, they have raised 8 kids together and felt the joy of 22 grandchildren. He has given me the best memories a girl could have. I have learned so much from him. When my sisters were learning to sew and cook and clean, I was outside with my Dad. Learning to use the table saw and sanders. Refinishing furniture, building and painting things, trimming trees...all the traditional 'boy things'.  I remember him teaching me to mow our farm with the riding mower when I was barely able to reach the brake pedal. He always believe I could do it. Never doubted me. I wish every girl could experience a Dad with such a calm sweetness about him. This is the first time I am feeling sad to be the youngest in our family. 36 years with him is just not enough for me. 

I am heartbroken he has to experience this. He is starting chemo today. We know it won't cure him, but he just wanted a little more time. He wants to say goodbye, hug us all as much as he can and hope for that miracle. All I ask is that you remember him in your prayers. 

Please.

I am going to continue posting when I feel the urge, but I am going to spend every moment I can hanging on every word he has to say and just being with him. 

130 comments:

  1. Mary, so sorry to hear your news. I'll pray for your dad - enjoy every moment with him and your sweet pup.

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  2. I am so sorry, to hear this....I know how difficult this is...you are doing what you should do and that's spend every possible minute with this great man. Say everything you need to say, love as much as you can without holding back...blessings and will keep you and your family in my prayers. Hugs.
    Lucy

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  3. oh mary. i am crying tears for you, too, my friend. i will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers, and i will hug my own family and pups a little tighter. thinking of you.

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  4. I am very sorry to hear about your dad - I will pray for him and for your whole family. I am glad that you are taking the time you have left and making the most of it - THAT you will never regret.

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  5. Sending prayers for your family ((hugs))

    Mary Ellen
    The Working Home Keeper

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  6. Oh Mary - I am so sorry. All my love and prayers are streaming their way to you and your family. J

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  7. So so sorry to hear about your Dad. Praying for him and your family. He sounds like a wonderful man, and he's so handsome in those pictures! I hope you enjoy every moment you have with him. Hugs to you.

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  8. Hi Mary~~ I am so very sorry to hear this news:(( Cancer strikes the very best people in the world,I know, my mom has been suffering with it for years. I truly know the pain you are going through. It seems like it is constantly in the back of your mind no matter what you seem to be doing.
    Sending you hugs and prayers.
    xoxo,
    Cheryl

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  9. Prayers and hugs for you and your family! Sorry for your sad summer.

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  10. I don't even know what to say, other then...praying. Continue to build those precious memories you so lovingly eluded to above.

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  11. All I can say is my prayers are with your whole family...

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  12. My thoughts are with you. My dad was diagnosed in 2005. He opted out of treatment.

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  13. So sorry about your dad, and will pray for him daily. Just went through it with my sister. Your dad was a babe!

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  14. Oh Mary...this breaks my heart so much. My honey's dad passed that way. Completely blindsided...advanced. It leaves you reeling. And your poor pup. Oh girl I wish I could just reach through the computer and give you a giant hug. Please know I'll be lifting you and your family up in prayer.

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  15. Your dad will definitely be added to our prayers when my girls and I say our good night prayers! XOXO

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  16. So sorry to hear your dealing with a double whammy. Chemo has come a long way the last few years, but still tough to deal with, take care, stay close, good luck.

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  17. You and your dad are in my prayers.
    Kristina

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  18. :/ so sorry! thoughts & prayers to you & your family!

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  19. Time is the one gift that cancer give you....time to sit and listen and talk and laugh and love! Take that time and cherish it for the blessing it will be to you.

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  20. I understand what you are going through. Same has happened to me in the last year. There aren't any words to make it all right. There are only tears, hope and acceptance of what will be. Somehow we get through it. We are never the same as we were before. However, with trust in God, we can become stronger. My prayers are with you and your family. One thing we have learned....life is short so make the most of what we have!

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  21. My heart and thoughts are with you, your Dad, and the rest of your family ~

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  22. Well, bless your heart. I really have no words of comfort. I do believe it is a gift in some ways to know what's coming and to be able to squeeze in as much love as possible until the end. We don't always get that. On the other hand, it's very hard to know. My hugs and prayers go out to you and yours. Jen

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  23. You know that not only are you in my heart and my prayers, but that I also know all too well the fear and sadness you are experiencing.

    Please, PLEASE call me if you just need to talk.
    You have my number, right?
    I'm here for you, Mary.
    love you.

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  24. Mary, I am so incredibly sorry for all that you're going through. I can't even imagine! I never had the pleasure of knowing my dad, but I'm sure if I had a dad like yours, I would have been a very lucky girl!! I'm so sorry about it all. My thoughts and prayers are with you and if I get the pleasure of seeing you again in person anytime soon, I'll give you a giant hug! Take care of yourself and do whatever you need to do to make it through! Laura

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  25. oh I am so so sorry to hear this. Sending love and prayers your way. I will pray for a miracle, for strength, and for grace. Bless you all.

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  26. I am so sorry Mary. I'll be thinking about you and your family. Please take care of yourself.

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  27. I am so sorry to read this, Mary. I know there aren't any magic words to comfort you, but just know that I will tuck you, your pup, your father, and your family in my prayers tonight. If you need anything at all, let me know.

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  28. I am so very sorry, Mary. I was wondering what had happened at the hospital from your FB page... What a lot to deal with. You will be in my prayers. Take care of yourself, and know that you have many friends who are here to support you.

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  29. Keeping you, your Dad and family in my prayers.

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  30. Mary,
    I am so sorry.My heart aches for you.We will keep you all in our prayers.
    xx
    Anne

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  31. Dearest Mary, I will be praying for the entire family and your dog! Xo, Ashley

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  32. sorry for all this sadness in your life, my prayers and thoughts are with your family

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  33. Mary, I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I ache for what you are going through, as I know it all too well...lost my dad in 2000 to advanced lung cancer. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. **hugs**

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  34. You and your family have my prayers as well. I love following your blog and somehow it makes us one big family. Praying for peace that passes all understanding.

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  35. Mary, I'm so very sorry. Praying for you and your family and your sweet dog.

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  36. Prayers for you and your family. Life is just plain hard sometimes.
    Take care,
    Laurie

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  37. 1) I believe in praying for pets and I will.
    2) all the words you said about your daddy, I could say about mine (we also refinished furniture. the cancer
    was something that happened to OTHER people..not us. but it did. I was your age as well. and felt cheated. I lost my desire to go junkin' for years...b/c it was what I did with daddy and I couldn't stand to be around antiques. Don't mean to talk about ME but just to tell you that you aren't alone, I guess...and I'll pray for you guys.

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  38. I am so sorry to hear of your dad's illness. Will say a prayer for you and your family.
    Totally understand about your dog also. Not sure why God throws these bricks in the road, but we all over come. Keep your chin up. :)

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  39. sending big hugs and lots of prayers for you and your family! we can do hard things! xo ~ kristi

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  40. Oh Mary, how difficult. Love and prayers to you and your family. xox

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  41. So sorry to hear about your dad and Jake. Holding you and your loved ones in prayer!

    Jo

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  42. Sweet Mary...you've been dealt a double wammy. Having been through this with my dad, I know what you are going through. Our pets are a part of the family too. Will be thinking of you. Hang in there.
    Margaret

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  43. Mary, so sorry to hear your news, it brings me to tears. Your dad sounds so wonderful and a true blessing to you, what sweet memories you have and are able to continue to make. My prayers are with your entire family for God's comfort and peace. God Bless. Carol

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  44. Oh Mary, what a shock. All I can say is I will definitelt pray for them both.

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  45. My heart goes out to you and your family I lost my sweet dad 4 years ago and miss him terribly. I spent as much time with him going thru his illness and I cried a million tears but I would not give up the time I spent with him and my mom. You take as much time as you need and know we are all behind you and with you. Prayers, Di

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  46. i am praying this very moment.

    let the strength of others and his divine presence carry you through this valley.

    michele

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  47. Mary...teared up reading your post. I am so sorry! Please let us know if there is anything we gals in blogland can do. Hugs.
    Rachel

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  48. I'm so sorry. My daughter lost her dad a few years ago and I know how sad she was (& still is). He dad's death came so suddenly that she couldn't even say goodbye.....you have time. You're in my prayers. Jan

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  49. oh mary. my heart breaks for you. i am so sorry for your sweet dog and your wonderful father. my prayers are with all of you. please let me know if there is anything i can do for you. xo!

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  50. Sorry to hear about your dad and your puppy dog Mary. I will say a prayer.

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  51. Mary my heart hurts reading this. You are in my thoughts along with your fur child and dad.
    Marcy
    xxoo

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  52. I'm so very, very sorry. Just watching my husband recently lose his father to cancer - I can only imagine the incredible difficulty and sadness you and your family are facing. All I can say is lean on family, lean on the happy memories and lean on the ONE true constant in life - God's unfailing love. Prayers, Cathy

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  53. So sorry to hear about your sad news. I will have them in my prayers.

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  54. Mary, I'm awfully sorry about your dad and will offer up some prayers for him. It sounds like you had a good man chosen to be your dad!

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  55. dear Mary, I wish you peace through these stressful times. Never give up hope and enjoy each and every moment

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  56. Tears . . . I can imagine your aching heart. Good men are treasures . . . sometimes rare! Sounds like he is a teacher, mentor, family man, committed, hard worker, carpenter, stellar and he loved you with ultimate. I had a dad like that . . .

    My caring, more caing and still more . . . and prayers and hope.
    Love, Lynne

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  57. I'm so very sad for your news........prayers were just said for your sweet Dad and I wish him well. Stay strong and spend as much time as you can with him.....

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  58. I'm so sorry, Mary. Dads are so special, aren't they. I know I could never have the right words of comfort for you but know that I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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  59. Sending Prayers and Thoughts of Healing and Peace your families way.
    Spend every second you can with all your loved ones we will be around whenever you pop in and thinking of you all constantly
    RaNae of Ewe Creek Cottage

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  60. I am so sorry to hear about Jake and your daddy. Thinking of you and your family and praying hard for comfort and peace. Call anytime or text.

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  61. Mary, I am so sorry to hear about your dad (and Jake). I know very well what you are going through. My dad passed away from leukemia 11 months ago. I had 36 years with him, but only 6 with my mom who had breast cancer. I'll be praying for you.

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  62. Praying for comfort and peace for your family... We have been dealing with two years of cancer with my mom so I can feel your pain. I will be thinking of you and also saying a prayer for you doggie too!

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  63. Prayers are coming your way.
    Farm Girl Hugs!
    Florence

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  64. Oh Mary...my heart is just breaking for you. Know that we are coming together as your personal prayer warriors and will be lifting you, your dad, and Jake all up in prayer. May peace that transcends all understand, surround you and your family in the days ahead. ♥

    xoxo laurie

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  65. Mary, I just stumbled upon your blog yesterday....the name caught my eye. My heart aches for you as my hubs and I just went through this same situation with his dad. You will be in my prayers. Cherish every moment you have with your dad.

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  66. so sorry to hear about the difficult time you all are going thru. what a wonderful bond you have with your dad. take care.

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  67. Mary, I'm so sorry. There are no right words. Just know that you have sent up over 3,000 prayers for you and your loved ones. It had to take a lot of strength and vulnerability to write this post. Your dad sounds amazing. I'm sure he is so proud of you, his baby girl and protege. Wishing you many more moments to cherish.

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  68. Mary,

    Please Google "Gerson therapy."
    Also, please watch this YouTube video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFiT66QjEFI&feature=related
    Please make organic vegetable & fruit juices for him.

    I'm praying for you.
    Ellie

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  69. Praying right now for your dad and family and you.

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  70. Yes, be with him.
    I will pray for him.

    Helle

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  71. You are not alone... I lost my mother suddenly to a stroke in May and then lost our cat of 16 years two months later. Life can deal us some difficult hands sometimes. Enjoy your dad and the time you have with all your family and be thankful for all the love and memories you shared. You will be in my prayers.
    Donna

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  72. Praying for you. Be with him.....until you are with him again one day soon. You are right, 36 years is just not enough.
    I am so sorry

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  73. heavy hearted for you this morning.
    praying strength and comfort for your soul.

    I know what it is to be able to pull yourself up by the bootstraps when life gets hard, but I also know what it is to have circumstances that take away your ability to do that. The things you're going through won't allow you to pull yourself up and carry on....you're in the trenches. I'm praying the Lord meets you in the many tears you'll shed in the coming days. And, I also pray that there are days of joy in the legacy your father leaves.

    Matthew 11:28-30
    Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

    Psalms 34:18
    He is near to the broken hearted and he saves those who are crushed in spirit.

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  74. You all will for sure have my prayers.
    Hugging you
    SueAnn

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  75. Oh Mary I am so sorry! Your dad sounds like an increadible man and it is so special you had such a wonderful bond with him..Enjoy every minute with him. I hope the puppy gets better, praying for you.
    XO
    Kristin

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  76. Oh Mary, I hurt for you. I had a very beloved Aunt who battled cancer. We lost her way too soon. I can feel your pain, though I know this is much closer to you as it is your father. I will pray for all of you - and that your dog will continue to feel well too!

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  77. Oh Mary, I am so sorry. I have been there, this exact time, 5 years ago, with my Mom, same kind of thing, and I am so proud of you for reaching out to US, and letting us in your world. We will carry YOU while you carry your Dad. Keep sharing. I promise, it will help you, and please, give your Dad and your sweet dog a hug from me. and then one big one for yourself. xolesli

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  78. Oh Mary...I'm so sad for you....what a tough time....I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this.....your dad sounds like such an amazing man. That's so neat he has taught you so much. He must be so incredibly proud of you! You've done so much with everything he's taught you! And of course your dog must be a little angel too....I will pray for your family too.... Huge hug from the NW....{{{xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo}}}}
    Shellagh

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  79. I am so sorry to hear about your Dad....as he inspired you..now you too will inspire him with your warmth and dedication, love, lots of prayers and blessings to you and your family...
    Big hugs..
    Sharon

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  80. Oh Mary, I'm so heartbroken for you. I can tell by your words about your Daddy that you adore him to pieces and I will definitely be praying for you ALL. And precious doggy too... boy do I get that. I looked for you on Instagram this week (didn't see ya) and makes me sad that you were going through such heavy things... glad I know now so I can lift you guys up on this end.

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  81. I don't know the right words to comfort you at this time, but what I can tell you, to spend as much time as you can with your dad. My dad's been gone for 25 years, and I still miss him like crazy. Mom's been gone for 11 months.

    You're doing the right thing, spend the time with your family, you can never get this time back. I will keep you, your dad and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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  82. my heart aches for you. please know that you're in my thoughts and prayers. take the time to treasure every moment with your dad, he is truly a gift that you have been given for 36 years. praying that you have much more time to make more memories with him.
    i lost my dad over a year ago, and i miss him so.
    praying for strength for you and you're family as you encounter these trials and that you remain steadfast in faith.

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  83. I came upon your blog today and send prayers forth for you and your sweet Dad. Reading of the love you have for him in this post is such a testimony to who your Dad is. What an example of a Father. Grace and comfort be with you. I will pray right now, as I clean my kitchen.
    Beth

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  84. We are all crying with you and praying for you. May God hold you in His arms and give you strength and pleace.

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  85. I was sitting at Wendy's having some lunch and catching up on blogs. I cried while reading this. My heart aches for you as I have been where you are. I lost my 79 year old Dad to cancer when I was 36. I left my job to spend time with him before he died and it was the best decision I have ever made. I totally understand your desire to just be with him. Talk. Love. Just be together.

    Thinking of you!

    Polly

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  86. OH I am so very sorry. I know this is REALLY tought "stuff"...been there myself. Not gonna tell ya its easy because it is not. Wishing you and your family all the best. You will be in my prayers. Take care...love your blog:)

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  87. Wow~ So sorry to hear about your dad, but I must say how lucky you are to have such a wonderful dad. Alot of us don't have wonderful parents, and it is such a joy reading about someone who does and who appreciates them. Although your time may be short, enjoy the wonderful memories you are continuing to make. Hugs to you both!

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  88. Your family is in my prayers!

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  89. You are in my prayers! Enjoy the time you have with your pup and your dad! Your beautiful blog will wait. Just know that you will be in our thoughts.

    Karen

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  90. You and your dad are in my thoughts. Cherish every conversation and spend the time with him. *hugs*

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  91. Ahhh, honey. I am so sorry that your dad is going through this- and your family, of course. I pray God's peace will be upon all of you as you draw close to one another to get through this. Hugs.

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  92. Oh, Mary. I'm so sorry for all that you're going through. My heart hurts for you. Enjoy your sweet dog and wonderful dad as much as you can! You'll be in my prayers.

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  93. Mary, My sweet father was diagnosed with small cell lung cancer in April and it has been an emotional and life changing ride. It seems so gloomy at first, but hang in there! I pray that the chemo will help to shrink the cancer and prolong your dad's life. My father has not gotten sick once in 5 rounds of chemo and feels good. Take it one day at a time girl! ~jodi

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  94. Praying for you with my bible study girls this morning and put it on my prayer chain. I am so sorry...we have a big God who can do all things...so I pray with and for you:)

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  95. Sending you a hug Mary and keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
    Stay strong and positive!

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  96. Praying for your dad and the rest of your family. Phil. 4:13 - I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

    Denise

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  97. Oh I am so sorry! I have been there. You are all in my prayers.

    Karin

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  98. I am so sorry to hear about your Dad. I went through this with my Mom 2 years ago. She was always healthy, became ill was admitted to the hospital and diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. It was so shocking. I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. I know the pain you are feeling. I will be praying for you everyday!

    Sherrie

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  99. I feel your pain I lost my little pug to cancer and my Mother to cancer
    We only knew 3 weeks before my mother died, anyway we got to say goodbye and I love you

    there is a book out Life after Life it may be of some comfort to you .
    your Dad is leaving you and the family but going on to another demention before heaven bound.
    Another new book out id by Dr Mary Neal , To Heaven and Back

    I knew Sissy my pug had cancer one monthe before she died and I cried all month
    I think she knew she was dying and I was very sad

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  100. Sending hugs and pryers your way!

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  101. so sorry to hear the news about your dad. i have been there.. hold onto to everything you can and cherish all the time you have ,, he sounds like an incredible father and husband. what a gift he gave you!

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  102. Oh my sweet wonderful friend.....you are so strong in the face of so much! The wind is blowing hard and you are standing strong. Know that the thoughts and prayers of so many will carry you through the challenging days ahead.

    I add mine to the chorus of all who are praying for you.

    blessings,
    karianne

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  103. My heart goes out to you and your whole family.

    Many hugs!!

    Heather

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  104. I am so sorry for what you are going through.....You are in my prayers....ironically i am going through the same thing with my father and just had to have our 12 year old lab put to sleep...I have not posted for awhile until today and was shocked to see your post.too similar.....i am hurrying now to run to the hospital to be with my father....i am dong the same....holding on to every word he says.......prayers to you and you are in my thoughts....isn't it so strange how life can change over night....and the sick feeling in your stomach just does not leave? hope this day finds a bit of happiness for you.....chris

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  105. I, too, have been behind in my blog reading so I just read about your dear dad today. I cannot tell you how sorry I am. I lost my husband 18 months ago today to lung cancer that had spread everywhere by the time they found it. I had him with me for 80 days. I lost my dad exactly 6 months later. The advice I give you is spend as much time with you possibly can. Find old photos and look at them together. Tehy will help you remember great times that you have had. You can talk about those good times, you can laugh, and you can love him. Tell him how much you love him, what he has meant to you as a father. Share your heart with him. I'm also so very sorry about your precious dog. You are just having a really hard time right now, but God is with you and your family. He has something so much better in store for your dad and Jake. They will be together forever. God bless you and I will add you and your family to my list of prayers.

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  106. My heart goes out to you. I'm so incredibly sorry to hear you and your family have been dealt such an incredibly hard blow. You'll be in my prayers. Your father sounds like an incredible man with a brave spirit. As a dog lover myself, I know the pain you feel with Jake. It's not fair that they can't be with us longer. Enjoy your time with both your father and Jake. I pray that you have more time together than you think.

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  107. I'm so sorry to hear about everything you've been going through - you've certainly be dealt a huge blow. I had to put my dog to sleep 5 years ago and I've never cried so much in my life. And while my dad hasn't been hit with cancer, he had 3 heart attacks while I was in Ireland at the age of 83 - not the best news to hear from overseas. My heart goes out to you and I know that somehow you'll find the strength to get through it. Embrace the time you have with your dad. Big hugs xo

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  108. hugs to you, mary, and prayers for healing and peace for your dad, for you, for your family and for jake. You have been blessed to share your life with them...hang tight to the gift of wonderful memories, treasured times spent with them. Courage, dear mary.

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  109. I am new to your blog, but my heart goes out to you. I lost my dad three years ago unexpectedly and it eas/is so very hard. Our dads sound very similar in temperament. I will pray for you and yor family. Debbie

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  110. I'm so sorry to hear about all of this.
    Keeping you & your family in my thoughts & prayers.

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  111. so sad for you all. i will add your father, pup, you and the rest of your family in prayers.

    hope you all enjoy countless blessings, including the comfort of each other and that from friends, faith in God, lots more time together, laughing over happy memories ...

    kathy
    (new here via blog-roll of 'flowerpatch farmgirl')

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  112. mary, sorry i missed this post last week...but as you know we have been in contact about this. you are in my thoughts and prayers. please let me know if i can help out with anything if you need it. HUGS and so very sorry this is happening to you and your doggie!!

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  113. I know how you feel, really. My 67 year old Mom was diagnosed last month with advanced pancreatic cancer. My siblings and I are numb, it has been an emotional roller coaster. I have happy moments, but mostly just carry around alot of sadness while I try and enjoy these last months with her.
    So, prayers for you and your family. Also, take as much video of your Dad as you can, hearing him speak and seeing his mannerisms will be a gift someday.

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  114. Oh Mary my heart goes out to you. This is such a sad time for you and your family. After scrolling down to leave my prayers and comments I can see alot of great bloggers are praying for you and your family. I hope that gives you some peace and hope to know the power of prayer and good wishes are out there for you and your family. The few times I have met you at Tattered Tiques and the Kane Country Flea I just felt like I knew you forever. You have such an ease and openess and friendly personality now I know you where you get this from, your dad. You must be alot like him. My love and prayers go out to you. Hugs and healing prayers.
    Kris

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  115. Mary....you are in my prayers. I'm so sorry to hear this.

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  116. Mary,
    I am so sorry to hear this news. I will be praying for you and your family. I hope your minutes with your dad are multiplied and that you and your family create many more memories with him.
    Debbi

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  117. Continuing to pray. So very thankful for a God who hears!

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  118. Oh Mary, I am so very sorry about what you are going through! I can really relate to you {not with the cancer part}, but with your father being ill. I am also 36 yrs old, and last year my father who has always been so completely healthy, is now mostly bedridden {it was also very sudden}... I too am the youngest in the family and my father will be turning 90 this November 1st. Anyway, I will continue to pray for you and your family. I simply cannot imagine what you are going through, but you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Sending over many hugs and blessings your way!


    Sincerely,
    Jessie

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  119. Thinking happy thoughts and holding on tight to what is dear! Be peaceful my friend, and give your dad extra hugs and memories.

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  120. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad Mary...you and your family are in my thoughts.

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  121. I am so very sorry for all you are having to go through and deal with right now. Spend as much time with your dad as you can Mary & enjoy and treasure every moment. Praying for you and your family....

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  122. Prayers for you and your family. I feel what you are going through.

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  123. Have you thought about checking into Cancer Treatment Centers of America. They use holistic healing methods along with traditional medicine. They've even helped last stage cancer patients. It's a thought. So Sorry your daddy is suffering from this, and your precious pup. I'm praying for them both. Hold on to the Lord. He is with your family and will never leave y'all. Sincerely, Karen

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  124. I lost my mother last year - she was the most important person in my life. The best mother a person could have. I feel so incredibly lost without her. She died suddenly and to make matters worse, I was overeseas on the one and only overseas holiday I've had. I never got to say goodbye to her, I never got to tell her how much she meant to me, how much I was going to miss her. I know it's not much consolation, but the wonderful thing in your situation is you do get to say everything you want to to your Dad. It WILL comfort you later that you could do that. I feel for you - I too said 49 years with my mum wasn't enough.

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  125. I came back to the UK this summer to spend time with my Dad, who had been diagnosed with a brain tumor. I am so glad that I was able to spend a couple of months with him before he passed away, and would encourage you to do the same if you are able.

    The funeral and thanksgiving service were all the more bearable because we had already said goodbye.

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  126. so sorry to hear, peace and comfort to you and your family.

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  127. Take care of yourself. Your at probably one of the lowest points of your life. Baking soda baths and Epsom salt baths. Eating more often. Eating organic foods. Eating proteins, carbs and fats in each meal. Going to bed early. All these things will help you emotionally handle this.

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  128. Mary I haven't been by in ages & was scrolling through your posts just now & read of your Dear Dad's passing....I'm so sorry to hear he's gone....He sounds like he was a magnificent man & wonderful Father....The photos in your post are beautiful....Such a handsome couple....I hope your Mum is coping....

    Take care,
    Tamarah

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